5 November 2014
Damn Bad Juju or Voodoo Hoodoo ? One very long post with odd rant included !!
However all is not that bad once you break the fear factor involved and slowly over the last couple of weeks my head has started to engage again and focus. There are many contributing factors to this, and not least the many words of encouragement I have received from fellow bloggers. Despite my distinct lack of posting and usual levels of activity I have received many offers of help and enquiries as to my well being. Begrudgingly I have to hand some credit to the witch doctor too, despite the first couple of chats not being very productive, mostly because I did not want to talk, things have started improving. I have started picking up from where it appears my life left off several months ago and although I am miles behind from where I should be, one will get everything finished eventually. Well thats the current plan barring any more idiot spanners in the works.
Cor blimey, I even had a first recently and had to swallow a huge chunk of pride this week and fall on my own sword, I have been working on those F***in Baker Company Winter War figures for what seems like forever. I have never failed to hit a target or complete a project, but then again trying to make a silk purse from shit is harder than doing it from a sows ear. Trust me I know, poor quality metal meant half of the one legged buggers snapped and required pinning, of course you don't find this out till you are half way through painting them. Top that off with a healthy dose of almost finished and the man cave collapse happened ruining half the paint jobs so, I stripped and restarted them. Then the funk got worse and no matter how many times they were on my bench they spent longer off it. I have learnt a lot from this experience though and as a result I will never paint a World War 2 figure ever again in my life. Don't even tempt a joke of asking me to paint anything from Baker company, unless you can afford the medical bill for having them removed from your anal cavity because that's where I will tell you to shove them should you try ;)
I cant get enthused about ranks of dull grey, brown or green in varying shades of dirge. Try as I might I pushed on and despite Kevin offering to step in and take over I doggedly hung in like a Lurcher chasing a Hare. The Hare had a lot more stamina in this case and Kevin seeing that things were not improving offered several more times and again I hung in there. What changed was several conversations with said witch doctor and the wife who both concluded that because of my illness, I actually do not know how to refuse anyone at all, without feeling bad about it! ( I can not disagree with the logic ) so I always agree to do things even if I wont enjoy it, for fear of upsetting somebody.
Well no more mister nice guy from me then, yeah right like I can instantly change something that is deeply programmed in my mind like that. It is a skill I am going to have to learn and if someone dislikes the fact I don't want to paint figures for them it is actually there problem and not mine. So Loki is learning and has decided that he will not paint WW2 figures for anyone regardless of the money. You see money is not everything and again is the cause of other problems, we all experience money worries from time to time but couple that with a bad head and it becomes a one way trip to planet doom and gloom. Okay so I cant live without the stuff but I can live without it being the main reason for taking something on that I will get no pleasure from painting. So Kevin once again offered to take over this week and I relented and have packed the final few figures off to him this morning and boy what a relief for me. I can now get round to all the other bits I have agreed to paint knowing that I will at least enjoy them. All I can say for now is if you have been unfortunate in making a purchase of these then for god sake get your money back!!
Improvements in my mind have also been inspired by the decision to go back to 15mm for Napoleonic gaming, so I have been painting up the last few 28mm figures I have laying around and dispatching them Via Ebay. I acquired a good Russian Army of AB miniatures and have been reading and researching a lot on this subject, now we have more availability to us due to Russian documents and archive materials being available lots of assumptions have been dispelled and replaced with fact. The Russians will appear shortly in a more elaborate post. Of course it has not stopped there as I am now building armies for several countries that featured in the conflict over the coming years. I will document progress through the blog. Combine this with a new approach to work and things are coming back together and I know I will be sailing on an even keel again soon.
I announced that I was not taking part in this years challenge and although I had requests to set a small target and join the fun, I have to refuse. When you have a mind like mine it would be reckless for me to even contemplate such a scheme, as it would be all consuming, overtake and possibly ruin any progress I have made thus far. I will watch it with keen eyes and enjoy all the wonders the event holds but for my sanity I am sure you will agree I have made the right choice for me at present.
Finally several of you have figures with me and I appreciate the fact none of you have harassed me to complete them, a true sign of you all understanding that I have not been all there. I can assure you all, that I have no problem painting these and they will all be completed in due course, I would just ask you all to bear with me at the moment as I haul my brain fully into normality so I can ensure you get the best of what I am capable of.
I am going to undertake a small re-working of this blog and shift a few bits around, one of those will be Warbases Wednesday which shall be occupying a new weekend slot, the first of which will appear this weekend. I am going to hopefully be posting more regularly with projects and gaming during the week in future and runes willing I will soon have the blog back to its old self.
Well sorry for the off load from my head, I am going to get back to painting a nice Regiment from Berg and leave you all in peace. Thanks for reading