I have been on a big downer, ever since the mini stroke damaged my eyes. It affected me, more and more, as some of you may have noticed I have not produced a figure in weeks. Why? Well everyday things had begun to annoy me, such as not being able to read the newspaper without glasses. Even using the laptop required glasses, just lots of little things, but these were all changes that I have had to adapt to and accept. Not an easy thing at times, like most humans I don't easily accept these changes especially when they just happen and don't gradually deteriorate. My eyes just did not feel right "yes I am aware how daft that sounds". However this is compounded by the fact I suffer from severe depression so therefore I was on the slippery staircase, I know only to well.
The biggest problem was I had become reluctant even fearful to paint anything in case I could not produce work to my normal standard. Now I realise I am not the greatest painter, but I have a style and standard that I work to and just cant accept anything less than that. The heat gave me an extra excuse not to paint and therefore risk disappointing myself. However, I had made commitments to paint some figures for fellow bloggers, and I could not avoid the issue for ever, my own pride won't let that happen as I hate letting anyone down.
So to pull myself together I took a couple of afternoons off work this week and sat at the painting desk. I could not risk screwing somebody else's figures up so needed something to paint, that would not matter. Now I should say my good buddy Kev, also delivered a kick up the rear as he has been nagging me constantly to get back at the painting, to see how my eyes had adjusted. So having decided what we were doing in regard to Black powder, this meant I had some figures that needed a repaint. The perfect solution as I could test my eyes on repainting them and if it went well I could finally accept the situation.
So I put on my new spectacles and set to a session of painting. Here is what I achieved, working on my own figures. 3 skirmishers of the 1st Battalion/ 2nd Legere for our version of Black powder.
This gave me the confidence to steam ahead with Ray's Vikings all I have to complete now is the shields, and then varnish as Ray wants to base the figures.